I saw this idea in a post yesterday that Karissa did and felt that it'd be a good one for me to do as well.
I wish I could say...
that I have the energy to go to the gym daily, but I don't so I go every other day.
that I didn't unfollow people on Twitter or hide their statuses on Facebook because of their obsessive political opinions. I'm all for one here or there, better exercise your freedom of speech while we can, BUT seriously I want to scream shut the hell up to some people especially the "women against Mitt Romney" things, those are absurd.
that I'm comfortable with my weight, but I'm not.
that I loved horses, but I don't. I like horses, but I'm not horse crazy like Mr. H is.
that I feel like I know nothing now that I graduated from nursing school. I probably look like a deer in headlights at some of the things that people ask me or say at work.
that I had a better relationship with my Mom, but I don't. I look at my Granny as my Mother figure.
that I am 100% decided on what program I'm going to start to get my bachelors. I'm 75% sure about this one, but I don't know for sure. I really need to decide like yesterday.
that I cooked dinner more often. I cook 3 nights a week maybe on a good week.
that I didn't feel so judged as a Mom. EVERYONE has something to say about EVERYTHING I do. Is my kid still alive? Is she beaten or abused in anyway? No, thats right. Just because I chose to co sleep, be a baby wearer, start cereal when she was 4 months, and vaccinate on the regular schedule doesn't make me any less or more of a Mom.
that I wasn't missing 'home', especially my Grandparents, but I love it here.
that Mr. H understood my love for holidays, over decorating, and reasoning behind already planning baby T's birthday even though she's only 6 months old, BUT he doesn't. He just shakes his head when I talk about it.
that I replied to every one of my blog comments via email, but sometimes I don't have time.
that I'm as strong as I make people believe, but I'm not.
that I've been having baby fever to Mr. H, but I don't think we're going to have another baby. Somedays I want to give Teale a sibling and somedays when we've had a rough day I think "You're truly crazy if you think about having another kid!" Plus, there's always the risk of another preemie.
that I knew what specialty I wanted to go into in my nursing career.
that I am super wife & Mom, but I'm not. I try really hard, but somedays I really drop the ball.
that I had an amazing relationship with our Savior instead of an average one.
6 comments:
Honey - I hate that you feel judged as a mom, although I would also say - welcome to the club? I don't know many women who don't feel that way, especially if she is sensitive to the opinions and thoughts of others. I think you're an excellent mama and I can tell you love Teale passionately! Lovely post!
hugs! it's ok to feel all the things you do- especially with your new job. once you graduate school and get into the real world, it's like nothing you learned in school taught you anything. i totally get how you're feeling. i hope your first day went well though!
Don't be so hard on yourself! Mr H., Teale, the good Lord, your family and friends love you :) NO MATTER WHAT! xoxo
<3 this post. These are my favorites. Your stronger than you think lady. I know you have your days, I can feel that from 2400 miles away, but you are doing a great job. You have come so far! In all honesty more than one person looks to you as a Super Woman: wife, mother, and friend! Keep it up it will only get better.
It is completely normal to graduate nursing school and feel like a deer in the headlights. You will probably feel that way for awhile. I know I did. You will gain confidence as you go. Promise!
I love this post! I think we're always wishing something else, but it's OK!
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